Even If It Hurts (ft. Blood Orange)
A duet about the way in which pain is a symptom of love
𝐸𝓋𝑒𝓃 𝒾𝒻 𝒾𝓉 𝒽𝓊𝓇𝓉𝓈, 𝐼 𝒿𝓊𝓈𝓉 𝒹𝑜𝓃'𝓉 𝓂𝒾𝓃𝒹
A diss track, really. It’s about a few different relationships in my past that made me feel helpless and powerless. I spent a lot of time in dynamics with close people in my life who thrived off making me feel small, and I spent a long time beating myself up about it.This was my way of letting go of that dynamic and those shoulda coulda woulda’s.
A KISS GOODBYE
This song is about intuition—following your gut and body more than your head. It’s about learning from love and giving yourself away to people, and walking away a little selfish. There are phases where you have to move through life allowing for the universe, the supernatural and the unexpected to do their thing.
˜”*°•.˜”*°• Why I give myself awayI’ll never know •°*”˜.•°*”˜
ℂ𝕠𝕞𝕖 𝕤𝕡𝕖𝕟𝕕 𝕒𝕟𝕠𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕣 𝕟𝕚𝕘𝕙𝕥 𝕨𝕚𝕥𝕙 𝕞𝕖, 𝕨𝕖 𝕔𝕒𝕟 𝕜𝕖𝕖𝕡 𝕣𝕦𝕟𝕟𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕗𝕣𝕠𝕞 𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕝𝕚𝕥𝕪
If you’re reading this you’ve probably been following / listening to my music for a while cause who else would care to read a whole letter written by me! I just wanna say – it means so much to me that you find yourself in some way in my music and what I create. Every day it means more to me.
Making music is one thing, but trying to make a career out of it is an entirely different beast. I was never prepared for so many of the aspects of it, and I only recently feel like I’ve actually come to understand who I am as an artist and what I want to represent. My new album 𝕃𝕒 𝕃𝕚𝕟𝕕𝕒 is what I created through a period where every part of my pursuing it was tested. I spent one year feeling insanely euphoric and inspired, excited about what I was making, working with a bunch of different people and for the first time truly feeling in control of my shit. Then, I spent a year standing completely still and not being able to move forward with it because of things that were infuriatingly out of my control - and that are really just the symptom of an industry that
1. glorifies yet devalues the artist
2. is built on a very outdated paradigm that’s structured to convince the artist that making and releasing music/art is so much more complicated & difficult than it is - presumably to keep us from truly gaining control of our work
3. questions female artists and forces them to defend & fight for their work in a way that is completely disproportionate and exhausting
Anyway. I’m over it. Ya aprendí. But – for a year I was fighting really hard to get this album out and have real support behind it. At a few points I thought about deleting all of it so no one would have it. Which brings me to now.
𝐼 𝓉𝑒𝓁𝓁 𝓂𝓎 𝒽𝑒𝒶𝓇𝓉 𝑒𝓋𝑒𝓇𝓎 𝓉𝒾𝓂𝑒 𝒾𝓉'𝓈 𝒶𝓃 𝒶𝓇𝓉, 𝓉𝒶𝓀𝑒 𝓎𝑜𝓊𝓇 𝓉𝒾𝓂𝑒. 𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓈 𝒾𝓈 𝓂𝒾𝓃𝑒.
I want you to have it. I don’t care what happens with it in terms of success, I know my future music is only going to get better and better. But I hope you love it because honestly I’m really proud of it. The only reason I’m releasing it is because I’m thankful... you’re who I made it for, you’re who will bring it to life. None of the rest really matters. (but come to my shows and stream/buy my music!)
ALONE IN THE UNIVERSE
I was feeling discouraged and alone and really bogged down by things that were making me lose hope. I wanted to remind myself why I do what I do and to reclaim control over it. This song came out of that place. I wanted to take what I was feeling and reach out& connect to someone else. I hope it does that for U.